I had just got fired from my job. All my efforts to enter into a meaningful career was going in vain. I was in my late twenties, still depending on my mother.
I had not slept for a straight seven days. Everything, right from leaving my bed, brushing my teeth or eating my food had become an impossible task. I was going through a hyper depression and anxiety disorder. But it was the best thing that ever happened to me in my life.
“Sarath, you are suffering from lack of concentration, a kind of learning disability” – my therapist sounded really strange. After all, I was always told to be ‘one of the best’ throughout my school life. But it was just the tip of the iceberg.
I understood how I had been a self bully. I was okay with everything and everyone except being myself. Being me was a matter of shame for me. I was desperate to fit in. In those desperate efforts, I lost myself.
The next few years was the beginning of a lifelong journey of learning, in learning and relearning.
Through the psychotherapy, books, travelling and the people I meet – I was finding the answers for my own questions. I taught myself to accept, surrender and love myself. I became grateful for deciding to keep going.
Why I decided to write
I know that I am not the only one who is searching for the answers to life’s biggest questions.
My journey, my sufferings are not just mine alone. We all have been told that “everything happens for a reason”. But I believe there is a slight change – “we can choose to change everything that happens to us into something good, only if we are ready to go through the pain of change and learning.”
We always have a choice. We can convert our biggest pain into our biggest strength by finding a solution or a better way to deal with it. Once you find your answers they can change the life of many others who are looking for the same answers. That’s how you can change the world for the better.
I decided to create these platforms so that I can learn and share my answers for others so that they can go forward and find even better answers. “The road never ends.”
I don’t think there is any better time to do this. Everything we ever knew as the “right way to do” is now making its way to something better and bigger for sure.
My name is Sarath Philip Jee. I am a backpacker. I like to travel occasionally with some friends but mostly alone on my own. Travelling to me is a way to find my self and how much there is always left to learn no matter what we do. To me to things never ends- the road and the learning. Is there any their anything I can’t say no except travelling? You know it’s called books. That’s what life means to me.
“Where are you from?” Well, my answer to this is always the same ” I am from the universe and always meet myself on the road. However, I born, brought up and now lives in Kerala. I don’t believe in borders and my dream is to build a world without borders.
And yes if you already guess it I am differently able. I am suffering from cerebral palsy.
- I am freelance and ghostwriter.
- I love books so I do book reviews and book recommendations.
- Feel alone? Wanna talk? Have some questions? Everything thing feels worthless? Been there and done that. Therefore just go to my contact page and find me, after all life is about finding your answers, right? Let’s get it done!